Pity party

I'm being ridiculously pathetic right now so I thought it might help to just write about my poor frame of mind. Somehow that helps me put my smallness in perspective. I'm feeling sorry for myself because I'm so tired I can hardly stand it, but I still have half a shift to work before I can go home. I know I have 2 patient interactions to write up, as well as a case study and nursing care plan. Then I have to study for 2 exams. That must all be accomplished this weekend which means Sunday since I have to work on Saturday.

To add to my gloominess, I really wanted to have my holiday off on the 18th. Of course, I could be selfish and insist on it since that is my right, but I just can't do that. I looked on the schedule and saw that another supervisor has off on that day. That means they'd have to call in somebody on their day off because I want my holiday off. Sometimes I wish I could just harden my heart and be selfish. But as a certain person told me recently (you know who you are, Twila), I'm a people pleaser.

Now that I've got that out of my system, maybe I can continue with a cheerful attitude. After all, I've got a really good job. And God did bless me with a fairly intelligent mind so I can grasp concepts in the little study time I have. Now if I can just let go of that need to make an A.