Stressors
My assessment course reveals to me that I am at risk for depression with all the stressors I have going on right now.
I survived stressful day number 2 of this week. Yesterday I studied for 14 hours for my test today. After all that work, I totally blew it. I got an 88% which brings my average down to 91%, resulting in a B. I have to have a 92% for an A in nursing school. I'll just have to study that much harder next time. I hate being such a perfectionist! I don't think 2 of the questions were quite fair, but so it goes. The professor said he'd consider my case on the one.
Now I have to start studying for my test tomorrow morning at 9:00. I haven't even looked at it, but at least it's only over 3 chapters rather than 10 like the one for today. But on the other hand, Dr S. doesn't give straightforward knowledge kind of tests. She likes to give us application questions. I did ok last time, but then today I proved I can also bomb.
I can tell my stress level is pretty high because my lips are breaking out in sores which doesn't happen very often with me. I think it's a combination of stress and biting my lip. Additionally, my stomach is feeling quite acidic.
After our exam, we had a lecture then headed for the lab. I think everybody was feeling a little overwhelmed because most of us just sat around with these dazed looks for a while. Then I started asking several of them what their clinicals were like. It was quite amusing to hear tales of giving bed baths. It's my nightmare waiting to happen because the first time is so un-nerving. Somehow it always ended up being females bathing males (even worse nightmare). But we've been thoroughly instructed how to go about it, including the uncircumsized male!
I'm also a little upset by the turn things may take at work. We've been having overtime almost every night, and my supervisor told me last week that she doesn't know if she'll be able to approve my leave anymore. It will be up to S who will probably have to go to J who will probably say no because he doesn't have to look me in the face. I also can't just put in for sick leave without documentation. I can call in, but it goes down as an unscheduled, and we can only do that 3 times in 90 days. If they'd just hire more people!!!! What if I'm forced to quit because I can't handle it? And here I have over 700 hours of sick leave that I SHOULD be able to use. My stress levels are just a hummin'.
I survived stressful day number 2 of this week. Yesterday I studied for 14 hours for my test today. After all that work, I totally blew it. I got an 88% which brings my average down to 91%, resulting in a B. I have to have a 92% for an A in nursing school. I'll just have to study that much harder next time. I hate being such a perfectionist! I don't think 2 of the questions were quite fair, but so it goes. The professor said he'd consider my case on the one.
Now I have to start studying for my test tomorrow morning at 9:00. I haven't even looked at it, but at least it's only over 3 chapters rather than 10 like the one for today. But on the other hand, Dr S. doesn't give straightforward knowledge kind of tests. She likes to give us application questions. I did ok last time, but then today I proved I can also bomb.
I can tell my stress level is pretty high because my lips are breaking out in sores which doesn't happen very often with me. I think it's a combination of stress and biting my lip. Additionally, my stomach is feeling quite acidic.
After our exam, we had a lecture then headed for the lab. I think everybody was feeling a little overwhelmed because most of us just sat around with these dazed looks for a while. Then I started asking several of them what their clinicals were like. It was quite amusing to hear tales of giving bed baths. It's my nightmare waiting to happen because the first time is so un-nerving. Somehow it always ended up being females bathing males (even worse nightmare). But we've been thoroughly instructed how to go about it, including the uncircumsized male!
I'm also a little upset by the turn things may take at work. We've been having overtime almost every night, and my supervisor told me last week that she doesn't know if she'll be able to approve my leave anymore. It will be up to S who will probably have to go to J who will probably say no because he doesn't have to look me in the face. I also can't just put in for sick leave without documentation. I can call in, but it goes down as an unscheduled, and we can only do that 3 times in 90 days. If they'd just hire more people!!!! What if I'm forced to quit because I can't handle it? And here I have over 700 hours of sick leave that I SHOULD be able to use. My stress levels are just a hummin'.
posted by Sara | 8:06 PM
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